I really wanted to go see I Come With the Rain this weekend, and so I went through the great ordeal of getting to the movie theatre. Only I forgot that this was also Twilight 2's opening weekend, which meant the theatre was packed full of people who wanted to watch some sparkly vampires and splody wolves. Already very annoying, but then I find out that I Come With the Rain wasn't being shown in order to run simultaneous showings of Twilight 2 because of all the people. So I get kind of angry and trek back home, which was a very long and difficult journey because I hate buses that never, never come on time when I need them to.

I didn't even shop a little while I was out because it's all Christmas everywhere, so there are crowds of people taking pictures and jumping on holiday sales and I hate crowds. The only time I enjoy a large gathering of people is for sporting events and concerts, anything else it's just a zoo and I hate people. I hate loud children and loud teenagers and loud people blaring at their cellphones and how all of them inevitably stand in your way.

So to sum up, die in a fire, Twilight. You make me miss the days of Potter-mania. Harry Potter never ruined my day.

I am just so sick of seeing Twilight shit everywhere. I can't get away from it! I'm also sick of stupid Christmas songs playing in every place I enter.

.....I'm just really grumpy today, aren't I? I hate Christmas every year, though.

In other news, my parents went back to America, and I cleaned the apartment. Then I downloaded my first Korean song. I still have no idea who's who in SS501, but Love Like This is an addicting song.

You know it's bad when you settle in for a few hours of mindless internet time before bed, your connection goes haywire and you are gripped by powerful rage and frustration.

I think normal people would say "oh, I'll just try it tomorrow" and go to sleep a bit early. I spent half an hour coaxing the internet back. And I mean really coaxing. Started out just trying to open my home page while power cycling the router and restarting the computer and finally got Gmail to open. For a good fifteen minutes I could only have one site open at a time. Now it's back to normal.

I still don't know why my internet decided to play hard to get. I wish all my problems were clear cut, like "plug this in" or "push that button" and it's all good. This probably had something to do with "bandwidth" which is one of those words I generally forget the meaning of, like "proxy" and "cookies."

My life, she is interesting, no? :3

Not that I've been watching the Colbert Report lately, although I should. But that's besides the point.

Bad news, I think I am getting sick. It's been eating at me all week, but I'm really feeling it now. My body is even getting achy. This sucks. I probably jinxed myself when I told my friend I didn't need her to send me Nyquil. Now I need some. Nyquil is the medicine for all your ills. Unfortunately, they don't sell it here in Taiwan. Fortunately, my friend knows I am an idiot and sent me some anyway, so here's looking at you, postal service! Here's looking at you for my health.

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( AND THEN SUPERNATURAL ATE MY LIFE. )

So what have we learned? Castiel is a glorified hunting dog, ladies like the pup with the big eyes, Lucifer is awesome and the boys have got to step up their game.

Anyway, the point is, I'm mostly satisfied with what I got. Maybe the hiatus won't be too hard to bear. I've never had to deal with one before, you know, as I used to watch Supernatural in the summer, once season was over, so I could just marathon it. I've also never had to deal with hiatus while being this in love with the show. So, we'll see.

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Finally, pictures to share. I know this will be weird after the post where I lamented about my food/weight issues, but these weren't taken recently. First off, Russian Milky Way! We don't have Milky Ways here in Taiwan, so this is the first I've seen of them. Why we import from Russia, i don't know, but I love the packaging.



It's a cute little bar, too. But there's no caramel. And correct me if I'm wrong - I haven't eaten a Milky Way in over two years - but aren't Milky Ways supposed to have caramel? Otherwise, wouldn't it be a 3Musketeers?



Then we got the other candy from Russia, hazelnut M&Ms. They don't taste good at all, though. They taste like regular M&Ms at first, but then leave this dusty, bitter aftertaste. I ended up tossing most of the bag. Sad, I know.

I know often times we lose friends once we fall out of the fandom shared. And that's understandable. If you only had one thing in common and one or both of you have moved on, there's no reason to stay friends. My problem is, I haven't made any new friends. Which is kind of weird. I feel like I ought to cultivate some new online friendships. If nothing else, it will give me people to fangirl with.

Maybe I am too picky. And also, as my new fandom seems to be Supernatural, I feel like I'm not hardcore enough into it to make friends. I fangirl, but in a very shallow sense. People in that fandom seem a little...well, like I was back when I was in college.

There is probably a very interesting essay I could write about the generation gap in fandom-ness, but I am also lazy, so I won't be writing it. :)

( Here let me whine about the problem of weight. )

So basically, if anyone has a good diet plan to rec, please share.

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I have heard SuG's new single and I am not a fan, but I have to admit, the PV is awesome. I love SuG's PVs, they always have some kind of plot involved. That is what the rest of the visual kei world needs to learn! Vampires and stolen goods and horribly spoken fake English news and DANCING oh wow who knew Takeru could dance? The only downside to the PV was yuji being silly and keeping his face covered the majority of the time. He's so pretty! I want more!

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Sudden thought: I should get back into the J-rock fandom? I feel like most of the weight gain began when I started watching Supernatural. Hmm.

I am the lamest lame person ever and did exactly nothing today. I barely even left my apartment, and when I did leave, it was only to use the gym, and that was only because I felt I had to after eating a box of delicious shortbread cookies.

Whatever. I kept thinking about what I'd like to do, but I really couldn't come up with anything.

I watched Death Race. There were little things I wish they had expanded (and mostly, I'd kind of wished the Asian guy had lived in the end instead of the black guy because the black guy was really a douchebag, and the Asian guy was at least kind of funny), but overall it was an entertaining movie. People died in explosions. There were guns. Jason Statham was hot.

Now, off to track down con videos. Misha looks so GQMF in his three piece suit, my god. SO. HOT. There definitely needs to be more of him in suits.

This week, on Supernatural( ... )

I'm waiting to watch CSI:CSI tonight once I get home. The cross over (which isn't really a cross over, is it? It's just the Adventures of Dr. Ray, really) to New York was okay, but I felt like the TV people are missing the whole point of this cross over thing. I wanted to see the different characters interacting. The whole thing is entirely too plot driven. I wanted Adam meeting like, Archie or something! Getting geeky and sharing interests! I wanted Hodges meeting Mac and driving Mac crazy! Catherine and Stella! Flack meets Nick! Greg and Adam would be another awesome matchup.

Anyway, hopefully once the plot wraps, I can go back to being giddy over the people. Because really, I'm over the whole "find the bad guy" thing. :3

I've gone ahead and made an appointment for tomorrow afternoon to get my hair done, but I don't actually know what I want to do with it right now! Gasp and shock, I know. But it's been over four months, and I'm so used to doing something...

( Supernatural, what I liked and what was kind of dumb, IMO. )

Long, long work day tomorrow.

Supernatural has aired, right? I can't find a download for it anywhere though. Usually it's up so quickly, what gives? I wanna watch me some pretty boys. I don't enjoy waiting.

However, I am entertained in the meantime by SDQ's timely find of Jonathan Roy's album. I've already downloaded the thing and my god, it's just as hilarious as I was told it'd be. I don't want to compare his songwriting skills to Paris Hilton...but I think I just did. Oops? XD

That family. Bunch of really attractive people, them. Jana is gorgeous and kicks ass (literally) and Jon's off being hilarious...I wonder what Freddy's doing?

I bought oatcakes the other day because I found them in the market and was amused. They are Scottish oatcakes, although I don't know if there are other types. They're pretty good with a little butter or jam, and I like eating them because it makes me feel very Redwallian. You know those Redwall mice, always eating oatcakes and scones.

Plus, they are vaguely healthy? I don't know. I know I'm hating the mirror right now, but that might partly be because of PMS. I'm all bloated and tender and it sucks so very, very much.

The weather has turned drastically cold overnight. It's sort of like we skipped fall and went from lingering summer into mid-winter. It's kind of nice because it means I can break out the coats and scarves, but you know, cold.

In two weeks it will be my birthday and I will be twenty four. It's not a big-deal age. But it's a reminder that I'm getting older and I still don't know what to do with my life. And I still feel young enough that I hate the idea of having to know what to do with my life anyway.

I feel kind of disconnected right now, like I'm not really talking to anyone. And it isn't like I don't want to talk to anyone. People apparently don't want to talk to me. I don't get responses to my emails (what, has emailing become a thing of the past because of twitter?) or I get fairly brief and non-informative responses to comments, etc. I like writing letters. I'm weird that I prefer writing letters and phone conversations to MSN/IM/twitter. I mean, the instant-ness of messaging is really nice, but it's so lacking.

When I talk to people through MSN/etc. I get short, one line descriptions of what is going on currently. Or something like "yeah I was in Washington" and I'd ask "doing what?" and the conversation would never resume. (Maybe this has something to do with the people I talk to? Conversation droppers!) I like letters because you get a big chunk of information to chew on, and then I can ruminate for a few days before replying with my thoughts and all the things I feel are relevant about me at that moment. It wouldn't just be "oh I was in Washington last week it was great end."

I feel sad because I know I am leaving my job in a few months, and every time I think about it I miss my students horribly (except for my horrible students, of course). But then I think about going home, back to the States, and I'm happy. And then I think about trying to start a life there, and I'm terrified. This cycle repeats over and over and over.

Sometimes, I think it'd be easier to stay. Deep down, I know I don't want to.

It's that time of month when I feel like a really good cry would do me good. I never used to believe that - that crying would make anything better - but it kind of does, sometimes. It's a break in the tension.

My parents are going to come towards the end of the month, and I'm actually looking forward to it. We'll probably drive each other crazy in a few days, but right now, the idea of talking to my mommy face to face is really appealing.

The stupid iTunes on my new system (which I don't even know what it is) is outdated, but I can't update to the newest version. Really. I try to download it from Apple, and nothing happens. I just a "thanks for downloading" message but uh, nothing downloaded. I try to use Software Update to get it, but the Updater says there's nothing new to update to.

What the fuck? I can't connect my iPod because apparently, my iTunes is too old for it. Why does this have to be so complicated?

Hmm, to preface, I should say that if I absolutely had to classify myself, I am a "Dean-girl." But I still didn't really like the episode.

If you haven't watched this week's Supernatural yet, ( don't look behind here, I guess. )

Anyway, in my head, that's how the episode really went, and I'm just going to wait for next week's. I'm sure it'll make me happier.

Also, Castiel got a new haircut, lol. I don't like it. It's like he went a little hair gel crazy and dunked his head in a vat. :(

Edit: I just had an amusing thought. If my version came true, they should also have contacted Bobby because in my head, I see the amusing scene of Bobby going "I do believe I can walk, I do, I do!"

I have to work tomorrow, booooooooo. I was getting so used to having Saturdays off...

In the midst of my foot crisis, guess what also shows up but my period? A full week early.

DIE WORLD DIE.

I can't exercise so I feel like I am gaining weight by breathing. And as much as I'm trying to cut back on the food, being on my period means I am starving hungry all the time.

I just wanna wear sweatpants and stay huddled in my apartment for the next week. Blah.

Now that I've finally healed up from that weird cough that I had, I went and got myself plantar fasciitis, which is the medical term for HURTS LIKE HELL WHEN I WALK. I have no idea how it happened. I wasn't doing any more exersize/walking than usual, and I'm pretty sure I didn't try to bend my feet or anything. But I was hobbling around on one foot for a weekend, decided enough was enough and went to the Chinese acupuncture doctor who told me what it was.

Cue sticking needles in my feet and smelly herbal paste wraps. Actually, I'm not afraid of acupuncture (although this is the first time it has hurt, which I guess means something is actually wrong), so it's not that bad. And weirdly, I enjoy the weird herbal paste smells. It brings back a vague sense of wellness, which I think has been ingrained in me from an early age, as I have no actual physical memories.

The thing though, is that even with treatment, this thing takes time to go away, and it's driving me crazy. I can't exersize, it's fucking hell getting to work (as I either have to walk to bus stops or ride my bike, and pedaling has become a chore) and I have to stand in class, which is more stress. I am so freaking annoyed. And I'm tired of my foot giving me pain.

Mostly, I wish I knew how it happened. :P

I sure am posting a lot these days. I'm sure it'll pass as my life grows boring once more and I'll go back to posting once a week or something. :)

Anyway, I got a few pictures from my friend, take a look! ( We are generally silly. )

That'll conclude it, I guess. :)

We just had a huge earthquake. Well, it's not big where I am, but it's definitely big wherever the epicenter is. But pretty decent rocking, 5.8? 6.0? for a good 30-45 seconds. The news is not gonna be pleasant tomorrow. Taiwan is also cornered by two typhoons right now, so it looks like it's all shit. :(

I don't know if I've talked about it before, but you should all go watch The Bucket List. ( I spoil the ending, kind of. )

Also, Sean...something who played Jack from Will&Grace is in it, as is the guy who plays Don Eppes from Numb3rs. I hadn't noticed Don the first time I watched it. :)

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This is really horrible, because the more I think about it, the more Turkey seems like an interesting option. I have sent out emails/inquiries to 2 schools in Japan, but three to Turkey. What is going on now?

P.S. I finally got curious enough to look up Misha Collins' wife and see what she wrote, and I have concluded that he must have the happiest marriage in the world. They both seem awesome. :D

I actually looked into teaching English in Chile. The money's not great, but it just seems interesting! Apparently, Bernie, you are right, Turkey is the place to be. I also looked at work in France, but it seems you have to jump through five million hoops first. Sadly, I do not know how to deal with government bureaucracy and paperwork; when I came to Taiwan I used my Taiwanese passport, so I'm here as a citizen and don't have to deal with "visas" and "permits" and crap. That is why I came here in the first place. Applications are daunting!

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Okay, I'm gonna ramble a bit on Supernatural now. Show of hands, how many people need me to put things under a cut for spoilers? I generally don't get to watch the newest episode until about 12 hours after it's aired, if it helps.

( Anyway, it gets long so I'll use a cut anyway. )

So my contract with Hess is up in February, and I have to start thinking about where I'm going. And I've said before that I'd like to work in Japan, but suddenly I'm not sure how much I want to anymore. I still want to go to Japan. But I don't know about spending an entire year there.

That being said, I sent in an application to ECC this morning. The site says I have to do interviews, but I am certainly not flying back to the States for an interview and then fly to Japan. I might wait and see, and maybe apply to a private school. I don't know. My wardrobe isn't exactly much for me working there, they seem to need business casual, and I have jeans and casual tops and hot pink jackets.

By the way, hot pink jacket! I seriously can't wait for the weather to get cold enough for me to start wearing it.

To be honest I really do like working at Hess. I just don't want to live in Taiwan anymore. And I know if I don't get out now, I'm gonna fall into a rut and then the next thing I'll hate everything and run away again to like, Chile or something.

Shall I teach English in Paris? How difficult would that be, job search wise?

And if I don't want to be a teacher anymore...what shall I do? I'm panicking on the inside.

Okay, first: I am clearly made of awesome because I managed to teach two classes today IN WHISPER. Also, I got a card for Teacher's Day (which is on Monday) that said "you are the best teacher in Hess" and you know, I felt really warm and fuzzy inside.

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Second: Say what you will about where the Supernatural story is going (myself, I think Kripke lost the plot two seasons back), but Castiel looking frightened and panicked is never going to get old. Oh god, the abject terror on his face! I keep staring at it and bursting into laughter! I feel that this season, I'm mostly going to ignore the "plot" and focus on those little moments. Dean's smile, Sam's woobie face...because if I focused on Sam being a whiny, self-hating bitch, I'd have to stop watching the show, wouldn't I?

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Okay, some pictures. There will probably be more on Facebook eventually, and a few more once my friend sends me what she has (and she has some really awesome ones of me being a gigantic idiot, trust me), but here's Danshui! ( Fun times ahoy! )

Vertical Horizon has a new album out. It's like I'm reliving high school!

Also, have somehow fallen ill again. This blows.